Hard Life Of Determination.

So yesterday,

i was on the way back from the mall,

and we were driving past a shoplot in my area,

and half of the shoplot had lost power,

i mean that's just sad,

to have no power to work,

to have the other half of the shoplot with power to rub it in your powerless face,

anyways,

there were two restaurants at the corner of the shoplot with no electricity,

what we call "mamaks" in our country of course,

and while every other shop with no power was closed,

these two restaurants had candles all over the restaurant,

and they kept serving,

in the pitch black, with tiny sparks of candles all over,

and there were plenty of people dining,

like a usual day,

i guess it's what they deserve,

now that for you, is determination,

the moment you see that it just restores you,

well at least,

it did for me,

to others it may seem like nothing,

they don't see through the situation,

everybody needs that determination in life.

Nothing should be able to phase you.

I just came back from 5 days working,

from being without the internet for 5 days,

and i came on and my sister posted a picture of us on facebook,

when we were slightly younger,

and it just got me thinking,

oh how much we've changed,

And so i got researching,

all my friends that i have been through my life with,

and i found a interesting fact about myself,

i found out that throughout my different phases in my life,

i will always have 1 person..or a friend, that sticks out amongst the rest,

the one friend that i spend my time with,

all the time every time,

the friend that i would be so different without.

And during my GIS years,

my sort of 7-10 year old phase,

i had one friend,

who i probably never would of thought we would be so close,

and yet we were,

we did everything together,

and the memories are just brilliant,

unfortunately that's all i have left,

she left.

During my 10-13 year old phase,

which was sort of just trying to fill the hole my previous phase left me with,

anyways he was a friend from GIS aswell,

we lived in the same area,

we were such little troublemakers,

doing anything to piss people off,

racing home to catch spongebob squarepants and singing the anthem,

he was a real cool guy,

amazing football player,

those were great memories too,

and yet again that's all i have left,

he left.

During my 13-16 year old phase,

i met a guy in the most random of places,

in a cyber cafe,

but he is truly a well good mate,

yet again,

we did everything together,

nearly every day,

and it was a maturing phase,

so everything we did has such an effect on who we become in our future,

and i must say,

those years were so far,

the time of my life,

the same goes to his brother,

they were both absolutely brilliant people,

and they left too.

The thing is...

these people,

who mean so much to me,

who made such a difference in my life,

i don't talk to any of them anymore,

i guess as we get older we just have to cope with that,

all i know is that i will never forget them,

and i know that one day i will meet them again,

i have to,

i can't just go through such a friendship and then just forget about it,

i really do miss them,

and i've wished that they never left so many times.

Right now i know i'm going through my next phase,

and i definitely know who the next person is,

and he hasn't left yet,

they all seem too one day.

I am just so thankful for having such amazing friends around me,

i wonder every day what it would be like if they had never left,

i understand and accept the fact that they have gone,

i just wish i didn't have to.

Amazing people, who i will meet again one day.

-James